In the process of updating my resume and damn LinkedIn profile (why do I despise LinkedIn so much?) I am mired in my career path and thinking about successes.
It's a slow process. I find it hard to talk positively about myself, and to remember my successes.
But here's one. I have Bipolar Disorder II, and through it all, I've gotten my work done. Maybe not always at peak perfection. Maybe.
No wait, it's been more than done, it's been excellent. I've managed meetings, navigated events, attended board meetings, all while I was depressed. Sometimes depressed to the point of having suicidal ideations. I managed to smile and laugh with coworkers and visitors while in my mind I wanted to off myself. Sometimes depressed to the point that pushing myself out of bed to get to work on time was the biggest accomplishment of the day. Sometimes depressed where I locked myself in the bathroom for five minutes so I could cry my eyes out, and then get back to the reports at my desk.
I'm starting to think of all this as part of my line of successes. Perhaps they're not what can be put on a resume or on LinkedIn, but I can say, I got shit done, no matter what.
I'm not in a depression now, which is why I'm working on the resume stuff now. I haven't cried my way through a lunchtime walk in a long time. That's success!
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