Don't steal my sunshine!

It's only Tuesday, but so far, the week's been pretty great. I started out thinking about sunshine and rainbows and how good things are right now.

That's a big improvement.

This morning I checked one of my Twitter accounts, one I hadn't logged onto in a month. The last thing I tweeted from it was something about what I would do if I had to pay more money in taxes.  It was in response to the White House asking...so I had honestly, naively, tweeted that when I pay more taxes, then I give up vacation, restaurants and home repairs. 

Maybe I didn't play right.

The replies to that tweet were flaming and I just read them, a month later. Uh-oh.

They said stuff like "Oh, poor baby!"  "Vacation? I haven't had a vacation in 10 years!" "Try buying fewer candles for your house!" "Looks like she should just drink less!" "At least you have a home!"  "Idiot!" "sounds like #whitegirlproblems." Shit like that.  It all upset me. Especially the candles comment. Why...

I really let them get to me.  I'm not thick-skinned at all. It ruined my day. I deleted the tweet. I felt ashamed.

I initially wanted to say I'm sorry I have a job and I take vacations and I have a house.

Wait - no, I'm not sorry.  I worked very hard for all these things. I pay whatever taxes I have to pay to support whatever programs need to be supported.  I'm an important part of this whole economic system at work. I keep contractors in business. And I'm well aware of the role luck plays in this equation.  I'm not ashamed of my life. I bought candles for the first time in years, so what?

I shouldn't have let them get me down, but I did, for a little while.

I'm never playing that game again. 

Comments

[KtP]

I had a similar Twitter experience today. People are dicks. I'm trying to not let it ruin my day, which is really the only thing we're able to control, right?

[blaugra]

People ARE dicks! Dick people.

[drolf]

You are so brave to post anything at all with all the trolls out there. I check in with your blog and I am grateful you do post. Just ignore those ungracious souls who take the time to put someone so generous with sharing down for no reason at all.

[blaugra]

Thanks, drolf! Do you blog anywhere?

[drolf]

No, I have toyed with the idea but it is kind of terrifying to me to think of putting out such personal information and being judged and critisized for it.
It was hard enough going through it in the first place (manic episode) with people in real life being freaked out. It does help though to find you here.