I lied.

When I said I was doing OK, I lied.

I try to have a positive outlook but it's getting  harder to do that. My new drug that I mentioned, well, caused a reaction that was scary and painful.  So, there's that. 

I don't know what's next, I guess try another drug. Or maybe try life without one of the drugs. I'd be open to that. Don't worry, I'm seeing the doctor.

I'm so looking forward to going to BlogHer, for some fun and new experiences so I don't sit around thinking about myself so much. Today I feel pretty good - not a lie - so I'm thinking I can do it. But who knows how I'll feel tomorrow or the next day. That's so frustrating. 

Meanwhile, a good chat with Band Back Together the other night helped. I'm having a hard time getting an appointment with a counselor so that was like a support group session. I slept for 24 hours then woke up and wrote this.

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[KtP]

Love you, B.