Taking another cue from Michelle over at Opinions for Nothing, I decided to come up with three words for 2013 that would provide a framework for my actions for the year. It's based on this but I have chosen to not delve into it that deeply and to go with a Cliff's Notes version.
This is not about finding my inner light, or not hiding my light under a bushel basket, or running towards the light.
This is about two things.
One, I'd like to be light rather than heavy. I need to lose some weight again. I was starting to kick ass with a personal trainer at this time last year and I just stopped when my mental problems got really difficult. Two, I need light rather than darkness. Life got very dark in 2012 and I think I'm at the point where I have more control over what I see. I can't really articulate it more than that.
I started flipping after I got into it with my new therapist. Flipping my thinking. When I feel down about something, I think "Flip!" and I turn it upside down. "I hate life." Flip! "I'm grateful to have wonderful friends." A little dorky, because I actually do say the word "Flip!" to myself. This is a new practice I'll carry into the new year.
Just the mental motion of flipping helps, even if it's not related to the thing I'm down about.
Want is a very important word. I want to focus on what I want to do rather than what I feel I should do. I give "the shoulds" a lot of power. "I should go to grad school for my MBA" was one should that didn't work out except to show me that I was in the wrong place at the wrong time and to cross that off the life list.
Now when I'm asked what I want to do or be, I don't know how to answer the question. But this year I want to think about what I want rather than beat myself up with what I think I should be doing.
Wait, I'll answer the want question right now. I want to live simply, I want to eat well, I want to feel safe and secure, I want to see light in my life.
Eventually, I'll know about other things I want.
Do you have a word, or three?